no the whole thing is wrong and it stinks and i don't like it.

Hey It's me again!!!!!

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Now it is September I have been playing neopets and being lazy and also my Dad said I can move schools so now I'm going to this dreamy school called Muirden which is tiny and reminds me of my first school Kirinari, which was for hippie kids. I had a really crazy saturday with Isabella, had a bad trip at the museum but it was fun when we weren't at the museum. I bought us mood rings and I can't remember how and the whole thing was so freaky but so goooood. Then the next day we went to the Saatchi exhibition and did some 'performance art'. Losers.  A lady took our photo and she's sending it to us soon. Also, err, I TOUCHED TRACEY EMIN'S BED. Yeah motherfucker.
Man, is my new school perfect wish I was going there now.

Currently Listening:
Koko Soko - Smile.dk
Play Dead - Bjork
Party Weirdo - Moloko
About Her - Malcolm McLaren


life is happy and fun

why did everyone else's wands light up when harry said lumos?

Thursday
Lilly and I went for a little walk along the river bank where we found this amazing nasturtium place but it ended up with us getting lost and caught in the rain and missing class and gibbering about skating across rivers on the backs of ducks or malignant water rats and then having a hectic time getting back into school and drying off. After that I went to Mount Barker to get my paintings from Juliette's. Then going to Officeworks and got a toaster oven to melt paint in and took their little cartons of milk because they taste better. Then saw Chris and Jude, then watched things on iView, and then stayed up all night to do my  Personal Project which counts for 10 credits.
Friday
Handed up project, came home sick and slept until my Pa came in to say he had lost the court case against my mother which means my sister no longer lives with us. Then me, dad and my sister went to this awards thing I had to attend, which was in the advertiser building five floors up and got to see people in the reception area below and you could see that everyone actually walks like monkeys from the view we had there. Then I unexpectedly won Young Writer of The Year and had  to have my photo taken by a one armed man who said to be groovy and have mojo and then we went home and watched The Good, The Bad and The Ugly.
Saturday
The first half of the day was interesting but it was when my sister ran away from mum's two hours after arriving that it really got serious. Pa and I went to get her from her hideout - she had run through a creek barefoot to avoid capture... then my friend texted to say she got dumped and so we organised to meet... then me my sister and dad went to the police station to see if she was allowed to come home with us but they didnt want to go against the court order and we kind of sat in silence waiting for mum to arrive. When she did she pulled the meanest face I've ever seen at me and I don't know why but it was shit. They took my crying sister and left. Then I went to see harry potter again with Bell and its so unintentionally funny, we laughed so much we were the bane of every other viewer's life. When she was in the toilet Steve started telling me stories about urinals and I felt like it was back in the old days. It's been one year exactly since we went to the Balfour's factory with Tom, first dumpster dived and wrote our song Hungarian Rhapsody. It's quite amazing really. Now I'm at my Grandmother's looking up things I want her to buy me such as Kit-Cat Clocks and bolo ties. Can tomorrow possibly hold as much in store???? SHEESH

I'm going to pull your head off, 'cause I don't like your head.

                                               funky mystery music

Allllrighty then. I reckon i've messed around with being an apathetic sod long enough. getting-my-shit-together calls. next year i want to go and look for australia on some desert vision quest you know like in that si and gar song. i've said a million wanky things like this and perhaps i'll say some more before any appreciable change is made and maybe there'll be hopeless tradgedies concerning failure of will power but the days are longer than I for one ever supposed so there is time to do things if i so wish.
i'd like to at least give an impression of being on the right track. the thing is future plans: ultimately they disgust me and are never fulfilled. i can only deal with the here and now. it's not that i like to live in the moment i simply can't do otherwise. i'm slack at making things happen and cannot stand unexpected events, due to self-consciousness i presume. situation is everything otherwise i am too uncomfortable.
so i must do nothing more than ensure that for every situation i am equipped but also overcome anxiety that i may not be.
 i don't really think what i am saying is important. all this and by this i mean life has so many complications you cannot focus on it all at once even though you really need to.

MAN WHAT A STRESSFUL DAY oh shut up caps.
cleaned my room and got rid of lots of crap, feels good man.
Ok I might catch up on whats happened in at least the last four weeks... I've been writing mostly on word documents and its used up all the space on my computer so im just going to use this blog to figure stuff out and get it down from now on...

Well I got sick  on wednesday midnight  (the week before exams week) vomited all over all my stuff and then went to the psychologists feeling queasy. then me and dad watched withnail and i. exams week was shitty. last day was good though, didn't go to art lesson cos i was asleep. that weekend i  had a stupid run-in with richard which was em's fault so i gave her an epic silent treatment. the very next day it was off to twangcentral guitars and it was beauty and perfection.  it was one of the funnest weeks in months. the people there are so humorous. Nick was the best making me google dwarf rabbit care when I had nothing to do. heaps of weird things happened like getting a chinese kite in the mail and seeing a rabbit-size rat. The week after i was lethargic and lugubrious, the absence of a place to be weighing down on me and the like. so I mostly moped and chainsmoked in trees. Saw Harry Potter but it was dumb. On friday I went to wirrabara to see the Ashby's with maggie and dom and quimbie. Jan gave me lots of gifts.She's really one of the most angelic people I know. We watched the movie were Simon Pegg is a cop and where the villagefolk kill anyone who makes their town look bad because they want to win England's best kept village. Then maggie and I took a Lot of shrooms and became the rulers of the town. You'll never know how good it felt to be the ruler of that town. It's a holy blessing to be a ruler and nothing feels as good. So it was cool to see those dudes, Got home and started arduous room clean up. Went out and had smelly yiros for dins. Just me and pa and elle home. Now I'm trying to discover what the rest of the week holds for me.Let me survey the cards. I hope my PLP completes itself soon.Getting pretty grim.  I will probably ring maggie because i missed her practically the day after i got back.I went to see Luana today. There are some hilarious freemasons buildings in port adelaide with fake hieroglyphs on them. Soon i'm getting a police clearance so I can  get a job at osch. I hate school so much I may as well learn to make fertilizer bombs. I neglected to sleep last night and boyoboy these constant stand-offs are nothing short of oafish. Tomorrow I go shopping. And we have a house inspection.. pity my room is next to the bathroom which means the wall crumbles to dust a little if i so much as touch it. Ah, my life.
Goodnight my various little minestrones.
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i don't want to be sixteen tomorrow. all i've even done today is watch beavis and butt-head and eat mini pizzas and drink dry cough forte which tastes like one horrible sickly motherfucker and its making me retarded.
i don't feel all that good about gettting older, not really at all.
i'm trying to.
i made a neopets account to relive my childhood but the new games suck and I need flash. I'm getting higher every time i hit S pa c e BAR
here's some good songs:
Psychotic Reaction - Count Five
Marquee Moon - Television
Social Fools - Devo
Die Die My Darling - Misfits.
I saw Mayer Hawthorne with Isabella on thursday. He played 'Mr. Blue Sky' by ELO and my soul was appeased. I wanna know how many rooms ive been in in my life. it's got to be thousands . hope my birthday is fun. I think on tues i see miss magoo and the boys and maman and those guys I love that young fool mAggie so much. Okay i'm going now haahahahahahaa... (idiot)

london calling to the underworld, come out of the cupboard you boys and girls

I cut my fringe super short yesterday, it looks pleasant.
 Today we handed out flyers it was fun yadda yadda. Then we went to the abandoned Balfours factory and I spraypainted a moustachioed man. wow Television is an exceedingly sensual band.
i kind of hate the internet. especially social networks
So many brainless twats sheesh! And complainers. Bratty little ingrates. I really hate hearing complaints. I've never cared. I don't think anybody cares about anyones complaints they just do it to pass their time.
So that being said.....I have no complaints! Just a dose of Good Attitude.
I just found all these little Wallace & Grommit figurines i used to get in corn flake boxes, its really exciting. My life is ~eccentric and interesting~ or so I believe.........
 I have a dolls house next to my bed where I keep all my stuff. I like it.
And I like you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tonight the city is full of morgues.

i've noticed that i don't write about my thoughts and visions. practically only stupid, stupid sentences or most of all -things i'm 'gonna' do. that's always what i write about.  not so much on here but definitely in my notebooks.
'plan is do this and this and this yeah yeah gonna be cool' like.... do it dude don't write about it. write about something that has real value. you're the big judge of value, gosh! i wish i could get myself to write a really decent story when i put some effort in people are always nice about it so i think i'm ok at writing, i mean i don't really know what i think about winning awards because i often don't agree with who else has won but i dunno i just think if i bothered with stuff then good stuff may happen.
so here's a thought: is the strength of the will a myth or not? i really don't know. can a person force themselves to do anything humanly possible or do you have to fit criteria - be a proactive person.?????????? i know sartre swears by it but who knows. short frenchmen have known to be wrong about things, like napoleon he was probably wrong in trying to take over so many countries, i mean he got exiled to a pissy little island right? i just want to have some sort of assurance that i'm the architect of my own existence and that i'll never have to live on the island of Elba. everything is messier and takes longer than i thought. i don't like some people in my family. this is the worst post on my blog so far L0Lz
tomorrow my ass will be kicked into gear accordingly. home work makes me weary.i want to barf on it and leave it in a bin far away. i guess i'm getting a littl e tired mmfrg

goodnigthththhddddjkv my sweet.
true secret: i have gollum style personality retardation

"There were days when she was unhappy, she did not know why,—when it did not seem worthwhile to be glad or sorry, to be alive or dead; when life appeared to her like a grotesque pandemonium and humanity like worms struggling blindly toward inevitable annihilation.” — Kate Chopin"