Allllrighty then. I reckon i've messed around with being an apathetic sod long enough. getting-my-shit-together calls. next year i want to go and look for australia on some desert vision quest you know like in that si and gar song. i've said a million wanky things like this and perhaps i'll say some more before any appreciable change is made and maybe there'll be hopeless tradgedies concerning failure of will power but the days are longer than I for one ever supposed so there is time to do things if i so wish.
i'd like to at least give an impression of being on the right track. the thing is future plans: ultimately they disgust me and are never fulfilled. i can only deal with the here and now. it's not that i like to live in the moment i simply can't do otherwise. i'm slack at making things happen and cannot stand unexpected events, due to self-consciousness i presume. situation is everything otherwise i am too uncomfortable.
so i must do nothing more than ensure that for every situation i am equipped but also overcome anxiety that i may not be.
i don't really think what i am saying is important. all this and by this i mean life has so many complications you cannot focus on it all at once even though you really need to.
MAN WHAT A STRESSFUL DAY oh shut up caps.
cleaned my room and got rid of lots of crap, feels good man.
Ok I might catch up on whats happened in at least the last four weeks... I've been writing mostly on word documents and its used up all the space on my computer so im just going to use this blog to figure stuff out and get it down from now on...
Well I got sick on wednesday midnight (the week before exams week) vomited all over all my stuff and then went to the psychologists feeling queasy. then me and dad watched withnail and i. exams week was shitty. last day was good though, didn't go to art lesson cos i was asleep. that weekend i had a stupid run-in with richard which was em's fault so i gave her an epic silent treatment. the very next day it was off to twangcentral guitars and it was beauty and perfection. it was one of the funnest weeks in months. the people there are so humorous. Nick was the best making me google dwarf rabbit care when I had nothing to do. heaps of weird things happened like getting a chinese kite in the mail and seeing a rabbit-size rat. The week after i was lethargic and lugubrious, the absence of a place to be weighing down on me and the like. so I mostly moped and chainsmoked in trees. Saw Harry Potter but it was dumb. On friday I went to wirrabara to see the Ashby's with maggie and dom and quimbie. Jan gave me lots of gifts.She's really one of the most angelic people I know. We watched the movie were Simon Pegg is a cop and where the villagefolk kill anyone who makes their town look bad because they want to win England's best kept village. Then maggie and I took a Lot of shrooms and became the rulers of the town. You'll never know how good it felt to be the ruler of that town. It's a holy blessing to be a ruler and nothing feels as good. So it was cool to see those dudes, Got home and started arduous room clean up. Went out and had smelly yiros for dins. Just me and pa and elle home. Now I'm trying to discover what the rest of the week holds for me.Let me survey the cards. I hope my PLP completes itself soon.Getting pretty grim. I will probably ring maggie because i missed her practically the day after i got back.I went to see Luana today. There are some hilarious freemasons buildings in port adelaide with fake hieroglyphs on them. Soon i'm getting a police clearance so I can get a job at osch. I hate school so much I may as well learn to make fertilizer bombs. I neglected to sleep last night and boyoboy these constant stand-offs are nothing short of oafish. Tomorrow I go shopping. And we have a house inspection.. pity my room is next to the bathroom which means the wall crumbles to dust a little if i so much as touch it. Ah, my life.
Goodnight my various little minestrones.
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