i've noticed that i don't write about my thoughts and visions. practically only stupid, stupid sentences or most of all -things i'm 'gonna' do. that's always what i write about. not so much on here but definitely in my notebooks.
'plan is do this and this and this yeah yeah gonna be cool' like.... do it dude don't write about it. write about something that has real value. you're the big judge of value, gosh! i wish i could get myself to write a really decent story when i put some effort in people are always nice about it so i think i'm ok at writing, i mean i don't really know what i think about winning awards because i often don't agree with who else has won but i dunno i just think if i bothered with stuff then good stuff may happen.
so here's a thought: is the strength of the will a myth or not? i really don't know. can a person force themselves to do anything humanly possible or do you have to fit criteria - be a proactive person.?????????? i know sartre swears by it but who knows. short frenchmen have known to be wrong about things, like napoleon he was probably wrong in trying to take over so many countries, i mean he got exiled to a pissy little island right? i just want to have some sort of assurance that i'm the architect of my own existence and that i'll never have to live on the island of Elba. everything is messier and takes longer than i thought. i don't like some people in my family. this is the worst post on my blog so far L0Lz
tomorrow my ass will be kicked into gear accordingly. home work makes me weary.i want to barf on it and leave it in a bin far away. i guess i'm getting a littl e tired mmfrg
goodnigthththhddddjkv my sweet.
true secret: i have gollum style personality retardation
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